Body Heart and Soul
Part 23 (End)
Xena was
sitting on the edge of their bed with her elbows resting on her knees, nursing
a wooden cup of tea clasped lightly between her hands. She was once again dressed in a shift,
though this one was blue, and newly bought at the fair before theyÕd left.
A quick run to town and barracks had left her puzzled
but happy. The army had settled back into their barracks, very glad to be home,
though their losses were intact and the healerÕs longhouse was busy with
injuries and some frostbite.
Wagons
had been put up, horses and oxen were in their barns, and her mother had taken the time
to assure her theyÕd come marching in last night triumphant, or didnÕt she
believe her?
Triumphant. Well. Xena shook her
head a little. They had defeated pretty much everything theyÕd encountered so
yes, she supposed they were triumphant in that regard but the thought of the
men lost, the pain suffered ate at her.
However.
With a sigh, she reconciled herself to paying out the troops in the morning,
and moving on with their lives.
Faint
crunching caught her attention and she turned her head as the door opened and
Gabrielle came inside.
She hung her cloak up and stripped off her gauntlets, dropping them onto
one of the low tables before walking over to the fire and warming her hands
over it.
Xena got
up and crossed the floor over to her, silently unbuckling the belt holding her
thick overtunic closed and removing it.
She
could see the reflection from the fire outlining GabrielleÕs face, and the
pensive expression on it, and she untied the front lacing, edging a little
around to the side as she parted the fabric, her fingertips brushing the skin
underneath.
GabrielleÕs
expression shifted a little, and she lifted her eyes to XenaÕs
as her clothing was gently removed, a faint smile appearing as her
partner stepped around behind her and kissed the back of her neck.
No
words needed, really.
Xena
folded the tunic up and put it on their garment press, coming back over with a
finely woven woolen shift she replaced it with. She gave Gabrielle a tiny nibble on her
ear, then she retreated back to the bed, resuming her seat on it, crooking a
finger at her partner in silent appeal.
Gabrielle
came over and sat down next to her partner and they quietly regarded each other
for a few minutes in silence. ÒSomething really weird happened to us.Ó Gabrielle finally said. ÒI mean, weirder than usual.Ó
Given
the scope and breadth of what theyÕd been through together that was indeed a
statement, and Xena gave it due regard. ÒWell.Ó She cleared her throat a
little. ÒWe all remember pretty
much the same thing. Us and the army.Ó She said. ÒAnd we sent a messenger up to
the valley to make sure Jess got back all right.Ó
ÒMm.Ó
ÒAnd
the town remembers pretty much the same thing.Ó Xena
continued. ÒItÕs just that what they remember and what we remember for the last
day is completely different. We know we didnÕt march in here last night. We
didnÕt march anywhere last night.Ó
ÒMm.Ó
Gabrielle grunted agreement. Then she hiked one knee up and rested her elbow on
it. ÒHey Xe?Ó
ÒMm?Ó
ÒLetÕs
just go to bed. WeÕll talk about it in the morning.Ó She stifled a yawn. ÒNothing we can do
about it right now anyway.Ó
They
got under the covers and let out twin sighs. Gabrielle felt the warmth from the
fire, and from the covers soaking through her. She reached out and felt for XenaÕs hand, curling her fingers around it and feeling the
tension returned.
She
felt very unsettled. ÒIt was the
gods, right?Ó
ÒThought
we were waiting for tomorrow?Ó
Gabrielle
sighed. ÒIt keeps going around and
around in my head.Ó
ÒHad
to be.Ó Xena replied, after a brief pause. ÒSomething
happened, and they put us all back for some reason.Ó She wriggled a little into
the soft down cover of the bed, glad to allow her body to relax, glad of the
warmth, and the comfort of their home.
ÒNot gonna argue.Ó
ÒNo.Ó
ÒWe
must of done something right.Ó Xena said.
ÒThey could have left us all there. Just popped out and weÕd be in that cave,
freezing our butts off.Ó
Gabrielle
considered that. ÒThatÕs a point.Ó
She replied. ÒNot only did they put us back, they put us back where we
belonged, assuming Jess is, and we were in our bed, with our kid here with us.Ó
ÒTrue.Ó
ÒSo
why do I feel so weird?Ó
Xena
chuckled softly. ÒWeÕre so used to them screwing us over.Ó She said. ÒItÕs always us on the wrong side of
things, suffering, getting our ass kicked, you name it. Whether we do things right or not.Ó
ÒMm.Ó
ÔSo
what did we do this time that was so right that we got this favor?Ó Xena shrugged
a little. ÒMaybe your story did it.
I liked it.Ó She paused. ÒHey, I just remembered – Ares was asking
me where you heard that story.Ó
ÒI
didnÕt hear it anywhere.Ó Gabrielle
rolled onto her side, and tucked herself into her accustomed spot on XenaÕs shoulder.
ÒI made it all up.Ó
XenaÕs
eyes opened up wide and she regarded the neatly timbered roof of their cabin.
ÒUh.. what?Ó
ÒI
made it up.Ó Gabrielle yawned and
closed her eyes. ÒI thought about how the gods might have ended up being a part
of our world and went with it..Ó
ÒReally?Ó
ÒReally.Ó
Was
that it? Xena
rested her chin against her partnerÕs head, already feeling the relaxing of
GabrielleÕs body against her as the bard dismissed the thought and let sleep
claim her.
Huh.
Xena
admitted privately to herself how shook up she felt, so visibly to her affected
by the gods machinations that had brought her, and her
army so far without really understanding what had gone on.
She
felt like she was missing something, but searching her memory over and over,
she could only recall that moment of dislocation, herself seated next to Ares,
seeing Gabrielle look over her shoulder at them, seeing that brief, wry grin.
Then the bang.
Then
nothing. Nothing but the echoes of that sound shaking her
awake, here in Amphipolis, here in their home, all
the struggle, and battle and trouble behind her.
What
had happened to the gods? Had they
helped? Was Artemis back in
Olympus, and what had happened to Athena or Hercules?
Did
it matter really if she just let it go, and joined Gabrielle in sleep? Xena
mentally shrugged and let her eyes close, letting the silence of their cabin
settle around her.
Outside,
the wind was rattling the branches, and there were soft pops and crackles from
the fireplace where a neatly laid fire would keep them until dawn.
Then
maybe they could gather down at CyreneÕs inn and compare notes, see if there
was anything else that theyÕd remembered. Or forgotten.
Or
maybe theyÕd just have breakfast, and resume their lives. Dori would
ride her pony. TheyÕd take Cari back to the Amazon village. A hunting party would go out.
Life
would go on.
**
By
the morning the snow had stopped, and the sun was out and bathing their cabin
as it rose through the thick stand of trees around it.
Xena
stepped onto the porch and went to the edge of it, letting her hand rest on one
of the supports as she watched a squirrel race across the open space before the
cabin, dashing up a tree and pausing to look back at her.
Gabrielle
was down in the village already and she pondered whether she should join her or
go down to the town. After a moment she pushed off the porch support and went
down the steps, her boots crunching softly in the snow as she headed for the
path.
At
the landing in front of the Amazon village she turned in, exchanging a wave
with the Amazon guard there as she entered the central square. Just as before theyÕd left, women
were crossing the big open space dressed in thick furs and leathers, and the
laughter of children sounded just off to the left.
Normal. Like nothing had happened. Xena
could hear GabrielleÕs voice in the dining hall as she neared it, and she
angled that way, pushing open the sturdy door and entering the busy with
breakfast space.
Had
she been teaching metal working just a moon ago here? Xena
quickly spotted Gabrielle over at the head table and went to join her, stepping
up onto raised platform and taking the hand the queen reached out to her.
ÒXe, listen to this.Ó
Gabrielle said, as she sat down.
ÒSure.Ó Xena rested
her elbows on the table. ÒWhatÕs up, Aalene?Ó
ÒI
was just telling Gabrielle.Ó Aalene responded
promptly. ÒThat right after you left, the plains queen? The one who got
beaten up? She disappeared from the back of the inn. Cyrene came up here and asked if sheÕd
come up by us, but no. She just vanished.Ó
ÒHuh.
Forgot all about her.Ó Xena admitted. ÒMaybe she just
got tired of the company?Ó
ÒWith
those injuries? Just walk out? Ò Aalene said. ÒCyrene
said she sent one of the kitchen gals to bring her some dinner the night after
you all went off and there was no sign of her.Ó
Gabrielle
frowned. ÒNo one saw her leave?Ó
ÒNo,
that was the weird thing, and why Cyrene came up here to ask us – itÕs
not like you can just walk out of Amphipolis without
someone noticing, the guards, or whatever.Ó Aalene said.
ÒNot that we werenÕt glad to have her gone. She was creepy.Ó
She
had been. ÒHmph.Ó Gabrielle grunted. ÒWonder if she wasnÕt
just part of this whole scheme.Ó
She murmured. ÒI was kinda hoping weÕd get a
chance to tell her she hadnÕt been abandoned by her sisters.Ó
ÒMaybe
she knew that.Ó Xena
spoke up. ÒMaybe she was the one who sold those guys out, then she got beaten
when she wanted to get paid.Ó
ÒOh,
no. Xena she wouldnÕt.Ó Gabrielle protested. ÒThose were herÉ
Ò She paused, seeing the wry look on her partnerÕs face. ÒXe, cÕmon.
They came here to try and get money out of us fo.. Ò She paused again. ÒOh sheeps.Ó
ÒThat
ranks.Ó Aalene
made a face, looking up as Eponin came over and took
a seat next to them, as two of the youngers delivered a platter to
the table. ÒHey Pony.Ó
ÒHey.Ó Pony returned the greeting. ÒYou hear about whatserface
taking off?Ó
ÒAalene was just telling us.Ó Gabrielle said, then she glanced to one side as she caught sight of Cait entering the dining hall. ÒExcuse me a minute.Ó She got up and
moved around the table, signaling her chief guard to hold up.
Cait did,
pushing back the hood on her cloak to expose her pale head. ÒIÕm glad youÕre
here.Ó She told the queen when Gabrielle reached her. ÒIÕve got to ask you
– whatever are we supposed to say to people when they asked us what went
on the past moon?Ó
Gabrielle
sighed. ÒYeah, Pasi just asked me that too.Ó She edged to the side
with Cait, clearing the passage up to the breakfast
pot. ÒI have that same problem sometimes.
There are just things I donÕt say because people think IÕm nuts.Ó
ÒExactly.Ó
The
bard nibbled on the edge of her thumbnail. ÒTell you what, IÕll tell everyone
the whole story tonight, after dinner.Ó
CaitÕs
pale brows lifted.
ÒSo
tell everyone to wait for that.Ó
Gabrielle put her hand on CaitÕs
shoulder. ÒBut what I really wanted
to tell you is just, thank you.Ó
She said. ÒThank you, and Paladia, for
standing by us, and risking a lot of yourselves in that little adventure.Ó
Cait
studied her soberly. ÒIt was difficult.Ó
She admitted. ÒI was terribly scared a lot, and IÕm not used to that.Ó
She said. ÒIt made me feel awful.Ó
ÒIt
does.Ó Gabrielle replied. ÒI felt
overwhelmed myself. There was just
so much out of our control you know?Ó
Cait
nodded. ÒHow does Xena feel about it?Ó She asked, after a pause. ÒShe got to
use that great sword, and all that.Ó
Gabrielle
turned her head to regard her partner, who was sprawled half over the table,
hand propping her head up. ÒXeÕs funny that way.
She doesnÕt really stress over things like that. ItÕs in the past, for
her.Ó
ÒReally?Ó
ÒReally.
I mean, here we are going through all that, and the sea creature, and being in
Hades, and all that stuff – and we wake up in bed last night and XeÕs all like - how convenient!Ó Gabrielle laughed faintly. ÒShe just moves on.Ó
Cait
thought about that for a minute, then she smiled. ÒClever of her, really.Ó
Gabrielle
also smiled. ÒIt is, because she knows she canÕt change what happened. I finally learned that myself, because I
used to go over and over and over things in my head, and worry. Xe doesnÕt worry. Xe just lives.Ó
Cait
visibly relaxed. ÒI think thatÕs a
good idea. After all, we really
canÕt go back and change it can we?
And weÕre here, at home, with a lovely breakfast to look forward
to.Ó She indicated the cookpot. ÒWould you like some?Ó
Steaming
hot porridge. Gabrielle hated it.
ÒAbsolutely.Ó She put her hand on CaitÕs back and
guided her towards the front of the hall. ÒIs Paladia
sleeping in?Ó
ÒGosh
no.Ó Cait
now sounded more herself. ÒSheÕs sketching like mad. Says she wants to make her pictures of
it before she forgets all of the things that happened.
Especially that whole crack bit.Ó
ÒThatÕs
great. She can help me tell the story tonight then.Ó
ÒIÕm
sure sheÕd like that a lot.Ó
ÒIÕm
sure sheÕd rather chew nails, but I bet you can get her to do it.Ó Gabrielle was slowly feeling the world
settling back into itÕs proper place around her. She no longer felt strange and out of
sorts.
ÒMama!Ó Dori came
pattering in, her body covered in what appeared to be flour. ÒI made the buppit
change color! Come see!Ó
ÒYep.Ó Gabrielle exhaled wryly. ÒItÕs good to
be home.Ó
**
Xena
found herself a little later down in the stable in back of her motherÕs inn, brushing
ArgoÕs mane and tail out and examining her favorite horse for any ill effects
from the travel.
Argo
seemed none the worse for wear, chewing a bit of hay from the haynet in her stall, and she bumped her rider casually as
she shifted a bit in the straw.
All
her tack was in itÕs place, as though Xena had put
her in her stall herself, and the rest of the horses, Shadow and Iolaus, and Rusty the pony were contentedly chewing, or in RustyÕs case, lying down casually, glad to be snug and warm
inside rather than out in the chill air.
SheÕd
left her sword up at the cabin and was dressed in plain working clothes, and
she finished up her brushing, walking past Argo and giving her a kiss on the
head. ÒGlad to be home, girl?Ó
Argo
eyed her tolerantly, lifting her nose up and puffing warm exhales gently into XenaÕs face.
ÒThey
told me you led the way into Hades to go looking for us. That true?Ó Xena put the
brush down and put her arm over her horseÕs neck. ÒYou and that crazy Cereberus.Ó
Argo
snorted, and shook her head, and Iolaus put his head
over the wall of her stall to see what was going on. Xena gave him
a scrub on the forehead with her knuckles, then she
moved out of the stall and went to make sure all their kit had ended up back
where it belonged.
She
lifted the cover up of the cabinet and reached inside, then paused, and gently
shifted aside the bag Gabrielle typically carried her things in.
Underneath
it, she found a splint, and she picked it up, turning it over as she recognized
it as the one sheÕd assembled around ArtemisÕs hand. It had been carefully unwrapped, and
neatly folded, put carefully away as though to wait for another time.
Xena put
it in her belt pouch and then she sorted through the rest of the gear, but
there was nothing else out of the ordinary to be found in it, just well used
tools and equipment, cleaned and ready for their next adventure.
She
covered the supply box and looked around thoughtfully, tipping her head back
out of long habit and finding the faint, fading letters carved into the spars
that held the thatch roof up and stopped, her breath catching. ÒWhat thÉÓ
After
a frozen moment she leaped up and pulled herself up into the loft, getting
closer to the spars and peering at the new, perfectly shaped carving in them.
Then
she let herself go flat on her back. ÒGabrielleÕs gonna
freak.Ó
She
lay there for a minute, then she rolled over and rolled right off the loft
edge, dropping to the ground and making Rusty snort in surprise. ÒSorry little guy.Ó She headed for the door
and went through it, into the bright, cold light.
It
was busy, in the crossroads by the inn.
Her army was putting supplies away, and as she went down to the barracks
she saw several soldiers in the three cornered building that held the smith
forge and that made her remember again what sheÕd been doing before the whole
thing came up.
It
felt like that was years ago, her being up in the Amazon village, teaching them
to work metal. Things had been
going along well, she reflected and then.
And
then. Xena
paused and regarded the sturdy barracks, busy with soldiers going about the
business of being soldiers.
And
then.
She
rested her hands on the top rail of the fencing that edged the slope the
barracks were on, noting that her presence was noted. She lifted a hand and waved, and Bennu left behind the saddle heÕd been carrying and came
over to meet her.
ÒMornin, Xena.Ó Bennu perched
on the railing. ÒArmyÕs finally
settling. Still trying to figure
out what the Hades went on.Ó
Xena sat
down next to him. ÒIf I had to guess, IÕd say we managed to achieve whatever it
was we were drawn out of here to do.Ó She let her hands rest on her thigh. ÒBecause I think we were.Ó
ÒAye.Ó Bennu nodded.
ÒWas thinking that, after that caltrop.Ó
ÒCaltrop?Ó
ÒOne
was found in the stable. That dead un, paid to put
there. Was meant to hurt you, Xena. Only your beasts in there, belongs to your family.Ó
ÒGuy
was found dead.Ó
ÒAye.
He was. Was thinking he was done
off with to keep him from talkin.Ó
Xena
considered that in silence for a long moment. ÒSo we couldnÕt tell who was
behind it.Ó
ÒAye.Ó
Bennu scratched his nose. ÒEvery time we thought we
had things taped, it wasnÕt. Like them folks from that city, what come to get us. Was dead
wrong in that place, Xena. Them was wrong
headed.Ó
Xena
folded her arms.
ÒAnyhow.Ó The soldier cleared his throat. ÒOne
thing some of the men were asking, like, is if it was
okay for us to put up a little shrine to the God o war. That okay with you?Ó
ÒWe
used to have one.Ó Xena indicated the space behind the stables. ÒIt got destroyed in one of the
raider attacks.Ó
ÒYour
mother said.Ó He nodded. ÒMen figured us being a army and all
that wouldnÕt do no harm.Ó
Would
it? Xena
thought about it. ÒI think itÕs
fine.Ó She said, slowly. ÒI was
saying to Gabrielle when we were marching that worship of the gods.. the falling off of that started
with us, not with them.Ó She
remarked. ÒIn my early career as an ass kicker I used to burn an offering to
him before any of my big fights.Ó
Bennu
smiled. ÒDonÕt much need to do that now.Ó
ÒNo.Ó
Xena returned the smile. ÒIÕm not sure I needed to do
it then. But it felt right, you
know? Just a little routine, like sharpening my sword, or taking a bath.Ó
ÒA
cleaning, yah.Ó He chuckled. ÒBoy do I remember that.Ó
ÒAnyway,
sure. Pick a spot and have at
it.Ó Xena
got up off the railing. ÒLet me know when itsÕ ready and IÕll christen it with
you.Ó
Bennu
looked pleased. ÒWill do, Xena.Ó
They
both looked up as they heard familiar pony hoofbeats,
and saw Dori come galloping around the bend of the
path on RustyÕs back. ÒYouÕre right.Ó Xena
hopped off the railing and went to intercept her daughter. ÒAbout that caltrop.
Hey! Hey Dori!
Hold up!Ó
Bennu
watched her slow the pony down and grab his bridle. ÒAye.Ó He said, somewhat
under his breath. ÒWanted you, it did. Whatever it was. But when it gotcha, it was sorry.Ó
Xena
walked the pony back up the path.
ÒWhereÕs your friend, Dor?Ó
ÒIn
da stables, Boo.Ó Dori told her. ÒI was gonna go
get some cookies. We were making fun.Ó
Obligingly, Xena
changed her path, crossing over and guiding child and pony up to the side
entrance of the inn. ÒOkay, letÕs go see grandma.Ó She lifted Dori up off RustyÕs back and set
her on the ground, then looped the ponyÕs reins over an iron spike in the innÕs
walls.
ÒBring
him too, Boo.Ó Dori protested. ÒItÕs cold outside!Õ
ÒHeÕs
got a nice, thick coat.Ó Xena herded her through the side door. ÒWeÕll bring him a
treat.Ó She followed Dori into the kitchen and found her mother and two of the
cooks inside. ÒHey.Ó
ÒHey.Ó Cyrene was perched on one of the benches
either side of the table. ÒFigured
out whatÕs going on yet?Ó
ÒNo.Ó Xena picked up
one of the utility baskets. ÒGot
any cookies? DoriÕs playing house in the barn.Ó She watched her daughter patter around
the room. ÒWhich now has some
carved initials from Olympus in it.Ó
Cyrene
had started to stand up, and now she paused in midmotion.
ÒWhat?Ó
ÒYeah.Ó Xena was
rummaging in the cupboard. ÒUp in
the loft.Ó She found a small loaf of nutbread and
stuck it into the basket. ÒI know you think weÕre crazy, but maybe thatÕll
change your mind.Ó
Cyrene
snorted.
ÒBoo,
look!Ó Dori
came over, holding her hand up. ÒAn happle. Can I
give it to Rusty?Ó
ÒSure.Ó Xena ruffled
her hair. ÒÓGwan.Ó
ÒXena, itÕs not that we think youÕre crazy.Ó Her mother came
over, holding the door open as Dori squiggled through
it. ÒI just remember, clear as day, clear as I see you standing here, you, and
that whole army coming around the bend and off the road. I can hear the sound
of the lot of you on the bridge if I close my eyes.Ó
ÒI
know.Ó Xena added some pears and apples to her
basket. ÒBut I just as clearly remember being in a cave, listening to Gabrielle
telling a story about the beginnings of the gods last night.Ó She regarded her
mother. ÒWe figure something happened, and we did something right for a change,
and as a reward we got put back here without having to march.Ó
ÒEh.
Not that it much matters.Ó
ÒTrue.Ó
A
distant whistle caught XenaÕs ear, and she ducked
outside the kitchen door, almost bumping into Rusty as she moved past him and
into the road to look towards the sound. The guard stationed down across the river
was loping across the bridge, and as she watched he spotted her and headed
immediately in her direction.
Bennu had
heard the sound too, and was moving her way, with a half dozen other of her
army.
ÒWhatÕs
goin on Boo?Ó Dori had
wandered into the path behind her, tugging Rusty along. ÒBad mens?Ó
ÒNo,
just one of our friends.Ó Xena lifted her up onto RustyÕs
back. ÒJust hang on there, shortie.Ó
The
guard arrived and so did Bennu and his mates. ÒXena, got a relay from
the pass.Ó
ÒWest?Ó
ÒYes.Ó The man nodded. ÒTrading convoy coming
through. A dozen wagons, and Ref
said they told him they were looking for a spot to winter.Ó
ÒFrom?Ó
He
shook his head. ÒDidnÕt say. Therma way maybe, some said they knew you.Ó
Broad range of possibilities. ÒOkay, when they get here let them settle in across
the river. They can shelter in the playhouse.Ó Xena shifted
her basket and took hold of RustyÕs reins again. ÒMarketÕs always good news.Ó She started
leading the pony back to the stable.
ÒLess
theyÕe got caltrops.Ó Bennu reminded
her.
Xena
looked over her shoulder and gave him a wry look. Then she continued on. ÒLets get you
back to your friends in the barn, Dor. IÕve got to go find your mama.Ó
ÒGo
mama.Ó Dori answered contentedly. ÒBoo, can Cari
stay with us?Ó
Xena
walked along in silence for a moment. ÒYou want that, little one?Ó She asked,
as they neared the barn. ÒDid you have fun in the valley with her?Ó
ÒYes.
Good friend.Ó Dori
supplied, earnestly. ÒShe wasnÕt
scared even when we flyed home, Boo.Ó
Xena
stopped at the door and looked at her. ÒFly home?Ó
Dori
nodded. ÒFun.Ó She assured her parent.
The
warrior pulled the barn door open, and stepped back to let Rusty walk past her.
Inside, Cari and TorisÕ twin boys
were in the hay bin, giggling as they appeared.
ÒAww!Ó Little Solon yodeled. ÒYou brought back auntie Xe!Ó He jumped out of the haybin
and ran over to her. ÒAuntie Xe! Auntie Xe! Come see what we
found!Ó
ÒHang
on.Ó Xena
walked Rusty back to his stall, as Dori scrambled off
his back. Since her child hadnÕt
bothered to add any tack to the ponyÕs halter, she merely pulled down an armful
of hay for him in an automatic gesture, and put up the rope at the front. ÒOkay you bandits. WhatÕs up?Ó
She
went over to the hay crib, drawn by DoriÕs squeals of
delight and looked down to see motion at the bottom. ÒWhat do we have here?Ó
ÒBuppits!Ó Dori danced around in a
circle. ÒOh Boo!Ó
Xena
perched on the edge of the crib and reached down, picking up one of the puppies
and cradling it in both hands. It
was a mottled brown color, and had a round head and tiny ears, but there was a
faint familiarity about it that made her pause.
It
opened itÕs eyes and blinked at her, showing pale,
golden orbs and she let out a breath. ÒLook at this, Dor. Ò She glanced down.
ÒThere are four of them. How do you like that?Ó
ÒBuppits!Ó Dori hauled herself into the bin and sorted the straw,
exposing another of the pups and gently picking it up. ÒLook!Ó She brought it
closer to Cari. ÒLook, Ca!!Ó
ÒSo
cute!Ó Cari answered softly, reaching out to touch
the tiny animal with her fingertips.
Dori
looked around. ÒBoo, where dere mama?Ó The child of two of them immediately
recognized the lack. ÒYou scare her
out?Ó She asked Solon, who solemnly shook his head.
ÒNo,
we found them.Ó His brother added.
ÒJust like this, Auntie Xe.Ó
These
were not Ares by blows. Xena handed off the pup she was holding to Cari, watching the child carefully cradle it. Each of the puppies, on their
small shoulders had light tan, round spots and a ring of the same color around
their necks.
ÒCÕn I have one Auntie Xe?Ó Solon
asked, wistfully.
ÒSure.Ó
Xena lifted the third of the four out and handed it
to him. ÒHold him gently, okay?Ó She watched him cradle the puppy, a grin
forming on his face. Lyceus came over to claim the last one, and they all sat
for a moment, four children with four puppies, and their silent watcher.
They
were more than newborns. Xena figured they were six or seven weeks old, and she
thought she understood the silent message they brought with them. Whether they were CereberusÕ
get, or his sonÕs it was a more than obvious offering.
So.
The
door opened and Gabrielle entered, pausing to regard the small group. ÒHi.Ó
ÒHi.Ó Xena extended
her hand. ÒCÕmon over and meet the new family members. Olympus left us a
present.Ó
ÒAh.Ó
Her partner joined her. ÒTheyÕre adorable.Ó She gently touched the shoulder
spot on one Lyceus was holding. ÒReally glad they just have these. A lot
easier to explain to the neighbors.Ó
Xena
chuckled.
ÒBuppits.Ó Dori was seated cross legged in
the straw, with her new friend in her lap.
ÒBoo said we could keep them mama!Ó
ÒOf
course Boo did.Ó Gabrielle issued a
wry, indulgent grin. ÒAre you going
to name this one, Dor? Not just call him Buppit?Ó
Dori
studied her new friend. ÒCÓn I call him Boo?Ó
ÒPlease
no.Ó Xena sighed.
ÒNow
honey, you canÕt call him Boo.Ó Gabrielle said. ÒIf you start calling out Boo,
how will he know if you mean him, or Xena?Ó
ÒCallÕm friend.Ó Cari suggested
softly. ÒI can have this one?Ó She
asked Xena.
ÒA friend is good to have.Ó
ÒA
friend is the best thing to have.Ó
Gabrielle answered. ÒSo I
think these little friends were left here for you kids, and you should feel
really good about that.Ó She
regarded the small animals, all of which were watching her from identical,
golden eyes. ÒLove them.Ó
Dori
hugged her puppy, understanding that word at least. ÒCall him Buppit.Ó
She decided, making both her parents laugh. ÒHe can be friends with Rusty too!Ó
ÒWill
you tell daddy we can keep them, Auntie Xe? HeÕll do
what you say.Ó Solon asked earnestly. ÒHe donÕt like aminals.Ó
ÒIÓll tell him.Ó
Xena reassured him. ÒThese are special
animals. HeÕll get it.Ó
ÒWill
he?Ó Gabrielle muttered.
XenaÕs
lips twitched. ÒLook over the loft.Ó She muttered back. ÒThink they wanted to make sure we got
the message.Ó
Gabrielle
got up and went to the ladder, climbing up into the loft and then turning and
dropping onto her back, wriggling through the straw and looking up at the spars
that held up the thatch of the roof.
After a moment, she folded her hands over her stomach. ÒI donÕt know how
I feel about that, Xe.Ó
ÒEh.Ó
ÒHow
do you feel about the Amazons asking me to build a temple up there.Ó
ÒUh
oh.Ó
ÒNot
for who you think.Ó The bard reached up one hand and traced one of the new,
perfect carvings. ÒAphrodite.Ó
ÒEh???Ó
ÒCait explained it to me. They figured out that IÕm the
happiest person they know, and Ares didnÕt make me that way.Ó Gabrielle informed her. ÒHad no idea really what to say about
that. I was about to ask if they wanted to make a temple to her or one to you.Ó
Xena
started laughing.
ÒI
mean, cÕmon.Ó
Xena got
up and went to the loft, laying her hands on the wood of the floor of it. ÒArmy wants a temple for Ares.Ó She
said.
ÒCould
have asked them the same thing.Ó
Gabrielle eyed her with faint amusement, watching her partner roll her
eyes. ÒBut you know, IÕm okay
with both of those shrines. Maybe
we can re-ignite those traditions a little.Ó
ÒDo
we want to?Ó
Gabrielle
exhaled. ÒWe need something to look up to Xe. We know them. Maybe the alternative is far, far worse.
You know? Then worshipping love and
war.Ó
Xena
looked behind her at the children playing with their new friends, surrounding
them with a giggling circle as they tumbled in the straw. ÒMaybe.Ó She admitted. ÒAt least we do know them.Ó
ÒMm.Ó
Xena
leaned her head against the wood. ÒJust please donÕt let them name any of those
puppies Xena.Ó She whispered. ÒOr Boo. Please?Ó
Gabrielle
rolled over and reached out, cupping her head with one hand and leaning over to
kiss it affectionately.
**
The
snow had stopped, and it was dark, a crystalline darkness with a crisp half
moon risen over the horizon, lighting the valley and
river below the ridge Xena was standing on.
It
was a distance from their cabin, around the side of the mountain from where it
stood and down slope from her old tree haunt, a wide plat of ground that
allowed no access upward towards their home for normal folk, and access from
below only by a rugged, tough path.
Hard
place to get to, but it had an isolation and an
overlook that bespoke a dignified grandeur.
ÒGoing
to be a pain in the behind to build it here.Ó Jessan came
over to her and stood beside her looking out over the
snow covered ground. ÒBut it feels right.Ó
ÒIt
does.Ó Xena
kicked a bit of rock with her boot and watched it sail out over the edge of the
ridge. ÒI didnÕt want to put shrines in town.Ó
ÒOr
the village.Ó
ÒOr
the village. This gives
anyone wanting to make an offering work for it.Ó Xena turned
and regarded the ground. ÒEven us.Ó
The
forest dweller turned into the breeze, his nostrils flaring as the wind brushed
back the thick russet hair around his head. ÒWe won out there, Chosen.Ó He
said. ÒI can feel it. We all did. Elani told me even
when we were in Hades, and I couldnÕt sense her, she could sense me. She knew we were all right.Ó
ÒHuhÓ
He
spread out his arms, and breathed in the cold air. ÒI told them about Ares. They want this too.Ó
ÒShrines.Ó Xena sighed.
Jessan
walked over to her. ÒThey want
something to believe in.Ó He stood
toe to toe with her, their eyes meeting in the moonlight. ÒWhen I told them
that you were thinking of doing this É I could see the burn in their eyes,
Chosen.Ó
Xena
sighed again.
ÒI
want this.Ó Jessan
said, gently. ÒI saw him. I fought
next to him.Ó
ÒYou
carried his sword.Ó
ÒAnd
you wielded it.Ó Jessan remained silent for a moment. ÒWhat did that feel
like?Ó He asked. ÒDid it hurt?Ó
ÒYeah.Ó
Xena flexed her hands, turning them upmost and
studying their unmarked surface. ÒIt hurt. It was hard. Felt like my whole body
was on fire. I was glad to give it
back.Ó
ÒTruly,
Xena?Ó He asked gently. ÒFor that moment, you owned
that thing.Ó
ÒDid
I?Ó Xena shook her head after a moment. ÒNo.Ó She spread her arms out and let the
moonlight bathe them. ÒNot in the
way I own my own. Or the way I own this body.Ó She closed her eyes and thought about
the difference, the sense that the sword was guiding her, to itÕs own
purpose. ÒWe were pawns in a play,
Jess.Ó
ÒGabrielle
said that.Ó He answered with a faint smile, showing the tips of his fangs. ÒAnd if anyone would know, itÕd be her.
But was this the end of the play?Ó He indicated the ground. ÒUs doing this?Ó
ÒMaybe. But IÕm all right with it.Ó Xena tugged
her gauntlets on a bit more snugly.
ÒWeÕll start dropping logs down that cliff tomorrow.Ó
**
Gabrielle
sat at her desk, head propped up on one fist as she wrote on a thick
parchment. The sound of the quill
point scraping on the surface was loud in the room, the shutters over the
windows tightly fastened to block out the cold.
She
paused and put the quill down for a moment, picking up a cup of tea and taking
a sip of the lightly steaming beverage, leaning back in her chair for a few
minutes break.
Her
quarters had been expanded a little.
TheyÕd built on a new room, to give Dori and Cari space for their rapidly multiplying toys so that it
was more or less the same size as their cabin up the ridge.
Both
she and Xena had thought through keeping Cari with them for quite a while, but the very obvious joy Dori displayed with having a constant playmate had eventually
won them over.
Easier,
Xena had eventually said than having them try to have
a second. WasnÕt it?
Well. Gabrielle took another sip of her tea,
savoring the new, spicy taste of the herbs that had come with the merchant
wagons.
She
heard bootsteps approaching and smiled as the door
pushed inward and Xena entered, closing it behind
her. ÒHey.Ó
ÒHey.Ó Xena undid her
cloak and hung it on the doorside hook, then came
over and settled on the stool next to her partners desk. ÒTemples will be ready tomorrow.Ó
ÒUh
huh. So whatÕs the consensus, we open the doors in the morning or at
night?Ó The bard asked. ÒThat whole
moonlight thing is cool hon, but itÕs freezing out
there.Ó
Xena
grinned briefly in agreement. ÒDawn.Ó She said. ÒWeather should be good for it. Freeze might even break.Ó She let her hands rest on her knees.
ÒLong ass winter.Ó
Gabrielle
nodded. ÒYou thinking about what
itÕs going to be like if they were right and itÕs not
going to end?Ó She asked seriously.
ÒNot sure if we can exist just with hunting.Ó
It
was cold, and had been cold since their return. Not just the normal cold theyÕd
become used to, but a frozen, lifeless cold that had them chopping holes in the
spring just to get water, and gained them several scores of miserable
wanderers, survivors of ghost towns who didnÕt have the supplies to keep them
fed.
ÒWe
can move.Ó Xena
remarked. ÒPlenty of places its
warmer. YouÕve been to some.Ó She added. ÒBut no, I donÕt think they were
right. IÕve seen winters bad as this here.Ó
ÒTrue.
But I donÕt want to move so IÕll gladly agree with you.Ó The bard offered her the cup. ÒWhat did you say this spice was, Xe? Its nice. I like it.Ó
Xena
tasted it, then handed the cup back.
ÒThatÕs ginseng. And I donÕt really want to move either. WeÕll just have
to see what happens.Ó She glanced
at the parchment. ÒThat the proclamation?Ó
Gabrielle
nodded, and pulled the parchment over, itÕs rich, creamy white texture at odds
with the rest of the scraps all over her desk. ÒYou like?Ó
ÒI
like that your handwriting Ôs getting better.Ó Xena leaned
forward to read, as they both heard a veritable stampede of tiny boots and paws
heading their way. ÒUh oh.Ó
ÒGee
thanks, madam who writes like ink spattered squirrel feet. Read fast. IÕd better get that put up
before itÕs covered in gunkÓ
The
door opened, and Dori came running in, with Cari after her, and two growing puppies. ÒBoo! Mama! Guess what we sawed!Ó
Could
almost be anything. ÒCÕmere and tell mama.Ó Gabrielle
edged her seat out from behind her desk and held her hands out. ÒBooÕs reading something for me.Ó
The
two puppies came over and under GabrielleÕs desk, immediately taking a seat one
each on XenaÕs boots and looking up at her
expectantly.
Gabrielle
snickered unkindly. ÒAnimal
magnetism. Never fails her.Ó
Xena
glanced at her, then at the puppies, then back at the parchment. ÒAh, for the
days when I was a bloodthirsty warlord.Ó
She sighed in mock regret.
ÒHoney,
way back then youÕd still have been feeding those puppies under the table so
donÕt even.Ó Gabrielle put Dori on her lap, while Cari came
over and peeked over the top of her desk. ÒNow, what did you see, Doriana?Ó
ÒMama
I sawed a big white owl and Cari sawed a white deers!Ó
Gabrielle
tilted her head and exchanged brief glances with her now serious faced partner.
ÒReally Dor? WhereÕd you kids see those animals?Ó
ÒUp
up.Ó Dori informed her. ÒBuppit wanted
to go go, but we came here.Ó She kicked her booted
feet out in random rhythm. ÒMama you got cookies? WeÕre hungry.Ó
Xena got
up and gently de puppied her boots, putting the
parchment up on a shelf behind the desk. ÒBe right back.Ó She said, briefly,
detouring over to the wall to don the over the shoulder belt that held her
sword in itÕs sheath.
Easier
to fit over the lined and thick hide tunics and leggings she was forced to wear
in the cold, less apt to get tangled if the hooks for the sword were sewn
directly into the hide covering her back.
Xena
worked the clever and intricate clasp at her waist that twisted together and
started for the door.
ÒWant
company?Ó Gabrielle had gotten her boots under her to
stand up.
ÒProbably
nothing. IÕll call ya.Ó Xena evaded
the puppies underfoot and went to the door, getting through it before anyone
could follow her. She loped
quickly across the Amazon village and emerged onto the path, turning right and
starting up the slope towards their cabin.
The
frost on the ground crunched under her lined boots, and she could feel a little
of the cold penetrating the sleeves of the shirt she was wearing under her tunic,
cut to allow her free motion if needed.
As
she reached the top of the path and emerged through the dead branches into the
clearing that held their home, she paused and went still.
Unlike
in the warmer season, when the always windswept glade would be full of leaf
sounds and branches rubbing, and the warbling of the spring now there was a
breathless, frozen silence.
The
cabin was draped in snow, across the thatch roof and on the edges of the
railing that bordered the porch.
Behind it she could see the depression that was the frozen over spring
and the faint hump that was the piping that would, in warmer times, bring water
into the cabin.
Slowly
she turned around and extended her senses, her eyes spotting the footprints
in the snow that marked DoriÕs wandering. She searched the branches on the edge of
the open space intently, moving from tree to tree in search of the huddled form
of the owl.
The
wind lifted her hair and brushed against her face and she inhaled it as her
ears cocked, listening.
Then
the silence was broken, and she jerked, then relaxed as she recognized the
black form emerging from the trees, licking itÕs chops. Ò Hey Ares.Ó
The
wolf came over to her and sat down, his tail wagging a little in the snow.
There were snowflakes resting on his fur and he twitched one ear, shedding some
of them. ÒGroof.Ó
ÒCÕmonÓ Xena
walked past the cabin and entered the woods beyond it, her boots making deep
impressions into the snow as she climbed up the sloping ground and made her way
between the trees as they altered from bare branched to the thickly needled
evergreens.
That
brought a rich, pungent smell to banish the chill nothing, and she breathed it in with
pleasure as the needled branches brushed against her, shedding some snow and
their distinctive oil with it. She
continued on, ducking under some lower limbs and watching carefully for any
moving creature.
Ares
trotted at her heels, sniffing the ground. Then he suddenly came past her,
diving through the snow and leaping up onto a boulder that stood at the edge of
the treeline.
Xena
eased up next to him and put her hand on his back, feeling the fur lifting
under her touch and she looked across the slope where he was staring, but found
nothing there. With a
sidelong glance she walked past and felt the wind pick up as she climbed up the
ridge to where her old apple tree stood.
ItÕs
branches were bare, and snow was piled up at the bottom of the trunk, a large
blob near the top identifying where the little tree house was that sheÕd once
played in, once gazed out over the valley in and on one magical night, slept
with Gabrielle in.
It
had been a very clear night, she remembered, and tonight would be clear as
well, only much colder. She
put her hand on the trunk of the tree and patted it in deep affection, looking
carefully but seeing nothing stirring anywhere around.
This
much closer to the temples she could hear the faint sounds of construction
going on, the last touches being put on the two shrines for the morning and
after a moment she continued on along the ridge to where the sturdy poles of
two big ladders could be seen.
Xena
looked down at the lower plateau, seeing a half dozen workers around the new
construction, two roughly square buildings made of stone cut from the mountain
and wood from the winter bared slope above.
Her
body stiffened suddenly as she sensed something behind her, and she turned and
stepped back from the edge, one hand going up to grasp her sword hilt.
But
the slope was empty, save for Ares who was seated nearby, tongue lolling out.
And
yet, she could still feel something there. Her skin prickled and she felt a
tension around her shoulders, muscles readying to fight.
But
the clearing stayed empty, Ares stayed seated, looking around and watching her
with a somewhat puzzled expression.
Xena
exhaled silently, her breath streaming visibly from her lips. She put her hands on her hips and waited
a few minutes, her nape hairs prickling, but to no avail. ÒDamn it.Ó She walked back to the tree and gave it
another pat, shaking her head.
Taking
a step past it, she sensed an attack and she turned, lifting her arm to protect
her head as she felt something moving towards it. It bounced off her forearm and dropped
to the ground, disappearing into the snow.
ÒWhat the heck?Ó
She
stuck her hand in the hole it left and felt a round surface under her fingers,
which, when pulled up for her inspection turned out to be an apple.
Xena
looked up, at the completely barren tree branches. ÒThanks.Ó She put the apple into her
belt pouch and started back towards the cabin, the tingling on her skin fading
as she walked. ÒGonna be one of those days, isnÕt
it.Ó
**
ÒCari, cÕmere.Ó Gabrielle leaned her elbows on her
knees.
The
curly haired child looked up, then she got to her feet and came over, not
without a touch of apprehension.
An old feeling that Gabrielle understood, at a very
gut level. She held her hands out. ÒI want to ask
you something.Ó
Dori
looked up from her rocks, watching her mother alertly. After a moment she got up and joined
them, standing at the edge of the desk.
ÒMama, what you do?Ó
Gabrielle
looked directly at her. ÒI want to
talk to Cari, honey. Go play with your rocks for a minute.Ó
She waited for Dori to consider the request, then reluctantly retreat to the bearskin in the corner.
ÒThank you.Ó
Cari took
her hands uncertainly. ÒI do
something bad?Ó
Gabrielle
smiled at her. ÒNot at all, Cari. I just want to ask you something, thatÕs
all.Ó She watched the child relax.
ÒSo, are you having fun being here with Dori
and us?Ó
Cari
nodded confidently.
ÒDo
you miss all the kids in the big house?Ó The bard asked. ÒBeing with all the
other girls?Ó
Cari
considered this a little longer. But not much. ÒNo.Ó She answered, softly. ÒDonÕt like them.Ó
GabrielleÕs
eyebrows lifted. ÒYou donÕt like the other girls?Ó
The
little girl shook her head. ÒMeans.Ó She added. ÒThem means to me, until Dodo
comes.Ó She looked behind her where Dori was seated cross legged, merely listening. ÒGood friend.Ó
Why? Gabrielle sighed internally. Why would they pick on little Cari, who was shy and harmed nothing?
What
was it about the Amazons that made them be so competitive? To
have that constant drive to fight to the top of the ladder and reject almost
instinctively the gentle and quiet among them? Even as children. ÒIÕm
glad DoriÕs been a good friend for you.Ó She said,
after a moment.
ÒGots to go back?Ó Cari asked,
forlornly.
ÒNo.Ó Gabrielle said. ÒI was going to ask you
if you wanted to stay with us all the time, Cari. We want you to be part of our family.Ó
ÒStay
here?Ó Cari almost gasped.
ÒYes.Ó Gabrielle watched CariÕs
eyes open in wide hope and she pulled her into a hug, remembering a moment in
her own life when acceptance had meant everything.
In the worst of times.
In the best of times.
She
felt Cari jerk, and she loosened her hold so she
could look at the child. ÒIs that okay?Ó She asked, smiling as she saw the
delight her eyes. ÒYou want to be part of this crazy family, Cari?Ó
ÒYes.Ó
Cari smiled back in obvious relief. ÒI can be crazy too?Ó
Gabrielle
let out a chuckle. ÒSure, why not?Ó
She ruffled CariÕs curly hair. ÒI think I have
to work on getting more of you kids adopted out to the tribe. You all need attention.Ó
Dori
clapped, over in her corner. It attracted the attention of the two puppies who came over to her and started licking her face, making
her giggle. She got up and came
over again. ÒMama done?Ó She
inquired. ÒNo more yak yak. Ò
ÒPrecocious
child.Ó The bard regarded her
offspring indulgently. ÒYouÕre such a brat, Dori.
Just like your other mother.Ó
Cari
turned to Dori. ÒSokay if I
call her mama?Ó
DoriÕs
dark brows contracted as she tilted her head. ÒWhat else you gonna call mama?Ó
She asked in some bewilderment, looking up at Gabrielle. ÒMama is mama.Ó
ÒSure.Ó Gabrielle agreed. ÒAnd its okay if you
call Xena Boo if you want to. She doesnÕt mind.Ó
CariÕs eyes widened in alarm. ÒYes?Ó
GabrielleÕs
mental wagon went briefly off the trail. ÒSure. DonÕt be afraid of Xena.
You arenÕt, are you?Ó
CariÕs
lower lip poked out a little. ÒBig.Ó She said, after a moment. ÒThe others are
scared.Ó
Ah.
GabrielleÕs expression sobered. ÒOkay I see.Ó She said. ÒCari, you
never have to be afraid of Xena. Only bad people have
to be afraid of her, you know? Because she protects the people she loves and
she doesnÕt want them to get hurt, ever.Ó
CariÕs
face brightened. ÒLike Dodo.Ó
Gabrielle
looked over at her daughter, with a faint, wry smile. ÒYes. DoriÕs very
much like Xena. And sheÕs going to be just as big as Xena when she grows up so get used to that.Ó And as she said the words, she knew in
her guts they were true, and that DoriÕs future would
never be in a peaceful farm or busy shop. ÒRight Dor?Ó
ÒYes!Ó
Dori patted the desk. ÒWe go play now?Ó She
determinedly changed the subject. ÒGo see if CatÕs got fishes.Ó She grabbed Cari
and started for the door. ÒGo go go.Ó
It
opened as they reached it, and Xena stepped to one
side to let them out. ÒCareful kiddos. Steps are slippery.Ó
ÒDank
you Boo!Ó Dori called over her shoulder as she jumped off the little
porch, evading the whole step issue altogether, as the puppies scrambled after
them.
Xena
watched them go, then stepped inside the queenÕs quarters and let the door
close behind her. She and Gabrielle
regarded each other in silence for a bit, then she removed the apple from her
pouch and went over to set it down on the desk, taking the chair across from
the bard and dropping into it.
ÒDo
I want to know where that came from?Ó Gabrielle asked.
Xena
grunted, and propped her head up on one fist, her elbow on the chairÕs arm.
ÒThatÕs
what I thought.Ó
**
They
decided to sleep in the cabin that night, and Gabrielle was sprawled on the low slung leather couch in front of their fire, doing
nothing more than enjoying the fire and itÕs shadowy dance on the ceiling.
Dori and Cari were down with the rest of the kids in the village, at
a group sleepover where the minders would watch them while the tribe and the
town, and their parents launched the new temples.
Xena was
over in the corner where she had her little work bench
set up, polishing her armor, an oil lamp hanging over her head spilling light
all over her.
ÒWant
another baked apple, Xe?Ó
ÒSure.Ó
The warrior stifled a yawn. ÒAlmost done here.Ó
Gabrielle
pushed herself to her feet and went over to the fireplace, picking up one of
the wooden platters sitting on the table and bringing it with her. She removed the top of the cast iron pot
hanging over the fire, digging the third of four apples out and scooping some
honey and cinnamon to drizzle over it.
One
of XenaÕs favorite treats, in this case made from the
last apple harvest from town and set to bake before their dinner, to provide a
sweet at the end of it. She
brought it over to her partner and set it down on the workbench. ÒThey worth all that polishing? YouÕre
probably going to be covered in dew before we get down there.Ó
Xena
chuckled. ÒI havenÕt had this stuff
on since we got back. Needed some
work.Ó
Gabrielle
sat down on the stool next to her.
ÒDo we know how to get a temple started, Xe?
Or are you just going to go down there, push the gates open and tell them all
to get on with it?Ó
Xena
sniffed reflectively. ÒGood question. I thought putting the word out would
bring up some of their accolytesÉ maybe an oracle but
I guess not. WeÕll figure it out.Ó
She finished the last piece of armor and set it aside.
ÒTheyÕll
show up eventually. Probably waiting for better weather.Ó Gabrielle watched her pick up the dish
and dig into the apple. ÒMaybe
thatÕs where the term fair weather worshippers comes from?Ó
Xena
chuckled silently as she chewed.
ÒI
think IÕll recite a poem for AphroditeÕs.Ó
Gabrielle said. ÒI have a new one I wrote, and I think itÕs okay for
that.Ó
ÒSounds
good.Ó
Gabrielle
reached over and stole a bit of the apple with her fingers. ÒAnd IÕm looking forward to the
festival. Glad weÕre having it across the river, and all those merchants are
around. ItÕll be fun.Ó
ÒItÕll
be fun.Ó Xena agreed. ÒArmy finished putting up all
those tents.Ó She licked the spoon she was eating the apple with and then put
the dish down. ÒTheyÕre happy,
townÕs happy, tribeÕs happy, armyÕs happy, mark the date on
your diary cause that ainÕt happening again soon.Ó
ÒHeheh.Ó Gabrielle took the dish from her and put it on the washrack, then she came back over
and offered both hands, curling her fingers inward invitingly. ÒCÕmon.Ó
Xena got
up and evaded her grip, closing her arms around her instead and lifting her up
in a ferocious hug. ÒThanks.Ó She
bumped her over to the bed and then turned, dousing the lamp beside it. That left only the fire in the fireplace
burning, shedding a faint golden red light on the inside of the cabin.
She
tumbled into the soft, feather topped bed alongside Gabrielle, inhaling the
clean linen smell and settling her head down on one of the pillows as the
quilted blanket was brought up over her. It was cool and then warm, and then
Gabrielle was draping her arm over her and curling up against her side.
They
both exhaled about the same time and then laughed. ÒSo.Ó Gabrielle snuggled up to her. ÒYou think
we can keep this festival going all sevenday until
your birthday?Ó
ÒCanÕt
we let the festival be enough birthday?Ó
Xena asked.
ÒNo.Ó
ÒGabrielle,
cÕmon.Ó
ÒHoney
we love celebrating your birthday.Ó
Her partner protested. ÒItÕs solstice. You get presents, we get presents
– cÕmon yourself!Ó
ÒMmph.Ó
ÒIÕm
trying to figure out what weÕre going to give Dori
thatÕs going to beat that damn pony.Ó
Gabrielle mock sighed. ÒI mean really. Could you maybe build her a slide?Ó
ÒA
slide???Ó
ÒAnd
we should give Cari something nice. How about some
clothes? She liked those boots your mom gave her.Ó Gabrielle gently drew patterns over her
partnerÕs stomach, under the light fabric of her shift. ÒItÕll be fun.Ó
ÒWhat
do you want for Solstice, by the way?Ó
ÒMe?Ó
ÒNo,
IÕm talking to some other woman in bed with me.Ó Xena
reached over and tweaked her nose. ÒAside from nutbread
and socks.Ó
Gabrielle
smiled. ÒI want all my family to be
happy.Ó She responded. ÒNot a damn
other thing.Ó
**
Xena got
to the bottom of the ladder and landed on plateau, which was already full of
people. There were forest dwellers
and Amazons, merchants and townsfolk, most of whom had
climbed up the newly staked out path from the valley below.
It
was pre-dawn and dark. But she
could smell food and green things and spices, offerings to the gods that had
been laboriously brought up with those who had made the climb up to help
inaugurate the two new temples.
It
was clear and the wind had died down, and as Xena
sidled her way through the crowd she drew in a breath that didnÕt sting the
inside of her nose for the first time in a while.
ÒXe.Ó
GabrielleÕs
voice penetrated the murmuring and she angled her steps towards the temple to
Aphrodite where here soulmate was standing with a
group of Amazons.
ÒThey
did a nice job.Ó The bard indicated
the temple. ÒLook.Ó
There
were oil lamps inside, warming the interior with a rich, golden bright light
along all three of the open walls and at the apex of the roofline.
The
third side was left open and it had been decorated with evergreen boughs, with
pinecones and nuts tucked into them along with tiny wooden birds and
flowers. Xena
ducked her head to enter and felt warmer immediately
Inside the altar was stone, chiseled with
care by the town stonemason and the center of the altar was a deep pool of
fragrant oil, with floating wicks inside it.
ÒItÕs
really nice.Ó Solari
said. ÒWe had some dried flowers
and Renas made these.Ó She indicated a half dozen
wreathes that decorated the front of the altar. ÒBetter in the spring when weÕve got some
fresh ones.Ó
It
was nice, and Xena ran her hand over the carved
surface with a grunt of approval.
Above the altar was a neatly painted image of Aphrodite herself, the
colors rich and vibrant, the Goddess draped in pristine white and
girded with gold, holding a golden cup and half smiling at the viewers.
The
image itself was realistic and precise, one of PaladiaÕs
nicest portraits. ÒWow.Ó Xena said, half turning to look for Cait.
ÒThatÕs nice.Ó
Cait
smiled. ÒIt is, isnÕt it? Just finished up on those last night.Ó She said.
ÒWait until you see the other one.Ó
Thus
invited, Xena emerged from one temple and moved over to the
other one, which, like itÕs neighbor, was three sided. Cait strolled
diffidently at her heels, the young AmazonÕs rank
tokens being gently moved by the slight breeze.
Three
sided. Xena
paused and regarded the second structure.
That
was, really, the only similarity.
The opening of Ares temple was lined with iron and steel,
artfully curled and intertwined in black and silver and the decorations here
instead of birds and flowers were weapons.
Knives
and miniature maces, and spear points pointed out in all directions making
entry require some caution if you were, as Xena was, more
than usually tall. She
went inside and felt the difference, this space lit
with red oil lamps shedding light the color of blood and the altar black
obsidian.
Made
XenaÕs skin prickle, a little in a not entirely
unpleasant way.
The
floor was lined with gray and black slate and as Cait
had promised, above the altar was a blackwood framed painting of Ares seated on
a throne like chair in a casual attitude, leaning back, his sword resting
across his knees with the hilt clasped lightly in one hand.
His
eyes picked up hints of blue color, and were looking right out at the viewer,
the likeness impressive and almost uncanny. ÒWow.Ó Xena repeated,
unable to repress a smile.
ÒItÕs
quite good, isnÕt it?Ó Cait had her hands clasped behind her back.
ÔThatÕs
him.Ó Xena agreed. ÒNice job. Where is Paladia?Ó She looked around.
Cait
rolled her eyes. ÒWonÕt come up here.
DidnÕt want to have everyone tell her how lovely these nice pictures
were.Ó
Xena
chuckled. ÒWell. ThatÕs sort of how I feel about singing.Ó She admitted. ÒWhich IÕm gonna do today, so go get her and drag her up here if you
have to.Ó
ÒRight.Ó Cait turned
and trotted out, visibly pleased.
**
The
sky was lightening, the crowd had gathered.
Xena
stood on a flat, high rock halfway between the two temples, as everyone
gathered in front of them, the chatter falling off as eyes turned to her with
an almost giddy expectation.
She
sensed motion behind her, and she turned her head to see tall, furred bodies
moving forward from the cliff edge behind the temples, knowing that Jessan had led his people up through the path past her
home.
Allowed,
through the gates of Amphipolis, and past the guarded
entrance to the Amazons, across the clearing that was theirs, and past the
tree.
They
gathered to one side of the crowd, tall and quiet, and making Xena inhale in surprise as she recognized LestanÕs face among them. His eyes twinkled at the
expression on her face, and he lifted his one remaining hand up in greeting.
She
lifted her own in return, in a hunterÕs signal that made his smile all the
wider.
Gabrielle
moved through the crowd, staff in hand, and stepped up onto the rock to join
her. Her carrybag
was across her shoulder, her scrolls inside it, but the long knife visible at
her waist and the staff paid tribute to her now realized dual nature.
ÒReady?Ó Xena asked
her.
ÒAs
I ever will be.Ó Gabrielle replied wryly.
ÒYou?Ó
Xena
cleared her throat and faced the crowd.
ÒPeople!Ó She called out
briefly. ÒLetÕs do this thing.Ó
A
wordless shout responded. Xena shifted a little and looked at her partner, who had
drawn a scroll from her bag and unrolled it, then paused and looked back. ÒOh
crap Xe. ItÕs too dark to read it.Ó
Xena
stifled a laugh and held up a hand, then she started
to get off the rock, stopping when, from nowhere, a small golden orb appeared
at the bardÕs left shoulder, hovering close to the parchment and spreading
light over it.
Now
there was complete silence, as Xena edged back into
position and waited. All eyes were on that orb, save GabrielleÕs. The bard glanced at the orb
briefly, then dropped her gaze to the parchment.
ÒThank you.Ó
Xena
folded her hands in front of her and just smiled.
ÒWelcome.Ó
The bardÕs voice sounded, echoing a little over the ridge. ÒWe gather here together this morning to
consecrate these two temples, these new places built by our hands to provide us
a place to offer our prayers and acknowledge our debts to the two forces that
have shaped our lives like none other.Ó
She
looked behind her at the temples. ÒLove and war.Ó Her eyes went to XenaÕs
profile. ÒPassion and battle have come to define the black and white of us as
people, giving us something to aspire to and give our lives for.Ó She looked out over the audience. ÒWe
would be the lesser without them.Ó
Gabrielle
paused and waited, and a moment later the silence was broken and then filled
with XenaÕs singing voice, rising up on a note so
clear and perfect
it brought tears to her eyes.
The
words were simple, as simple as their origins were and they resonated through
this crowd of equally simple folk who expected no more of life than friends and
a good mug of ale at the end of a day of hard work.
They
sounded of roots and warm sun, of sheep and riding through croplands. Of bending plows into swords, and the pain of a good death. Of giving blood and
sweat, and life and passion in the cause of a short life in the mortal world.
Bring
the light, Xena sang, as the first rose of dawn lit
her face. Bring
the darkness, we are children of both.
The
last note echoed and faded. Then
they stepped down off the rock and moved first to AphroditeÕs temple, entering
it together and regarding the altar.
Xena dug in her belt pouch and removed a
roundish object, placing it squarely on the center of the rock.
The
apple gathered in the light and shone gently there, and they stepped back. ÒCÓmon people.Ó Xena broke the
spell of silence outside. ÒOffer
what ya got.Ó
They
moved to one side of the temple, as people started to move inside, each
carrying some object, some small gift for the goddesses new shrine, looking up at
the portrait as they approached.
Xena laid
her arm over GabrielleÕs shoulders and she put her arm around XenaÕs waist as they watched their friends and family go
by, the altar quickly becoming decorated with everything ranging from tiny
cakes to colorful stones from the AmazonÕs valley.
Coins. Soft blankets. Feathers. Carved
boxes. Cyrene and Johan added a
small pot. Jessan
and Elaini put down a basket of herbs and winked at
them as they passed outside. Cait added a piece of jewelry, a silver heart, her other
hand firmly wrapped in PaladiaÕs cloak, pulling her
along.
The
former renegade glowered at the altar, her partner, and then gave Xena and Gabrielle a long suffering
look as she was yanked past them.
Gabrielle
stepped forward and blocked them, then she extended
her hand to Paladia, baring her forearm as she
offered a clasp, her eyes twinkling gently.
PaladiaÕs
eyes narrowed, then she made a face and bared her own arm, grabbing the bardÕs
inner arm up near her elbow while Cait watched with a
pleased but puzzled expression.
ÒGlad
I met you.Ó Paladia said, briefly.
ÒLikewise.Ó Gabrielle responded, releasing her and
returning to XenaÕs side, as they moved on.
By
the time it was done, the sun was rising and it bathed them as they went out
and crossed the open space between the two temples, and the crowd followed
them, clustering around the front of the other temple with an air of
expectation.
Xena
entered, removing
her cloak and facing the altar in her armor and weapons. She briefly glanced at the picture over
the altar before she turned and faced the watchers. ÒThere can be only one
offering here.Ó
Gabrielle
stood at the other side of the altar, her hands wrapped around her staff as she
watched Xena, watched the crowd outside, and felt the
dark energy flow over all of them as surely as water would have.
Xena
removed her dagger from itÕs sheath and without pausing sliced open the palm of
her other hand, waiting a brief moment for the blood to start welling before
she held her hand up and spread her fingers, displaying it to the crowd.
Silence. Shivers. A prickling
of the soul.
Xena
turned and put her hand on the altar, invisibly staining itÕs black surface
with her blood as the sun tipped over the ridge and came in slantwise through
the bodies waiting outside and speckling her with light.
She
held it there for a moment, then she moved away and
stood to one side. Before
anyone could move outside though, Gabrielle leaned her staff
against the wall and walked forward, quietly removing the long knife she was
bearing and cutting a deep cut in her own hand.
She
studied it briefly, then she put her hand down on the spot Xena
had, mixing their blood together.
Without looking at the gathered crowd, she turned and went back to her
partnerÕs side and held her hand up, waiting as Xena
lifted her own and they clasped.
Appropriate,
that their first new scars be matching ones.
The
crowd surged forward then, men and women, silent and intent, baring hands and
forearms and in BennuÕs case, foreheads as they added
their blood to the altar and the copper scent of it grew to fill the shrine.
Solari
had been the first Amazon to reach the altar, and as she moved away she paused
before them, and reached out to put her cut hand over their clasped ones,
leaving a stain of her own blood on them before she left.
Gabrielle
very gently cleared her throat, but the word silently spread and soon their
hands were covered outside with crimson drying to rusty brown.
It
was what it was.
**
The
celebrants moved down to the festival grounds across the river, and the area
was packed with stands and wagons, the hide tents, brought out by the army,
protecting everyone from the cold air.
Music
reverberated, and on the stage at the far end of the festival area a group of
players were gathering, making ready to put on a show.
There
were tables spread out and on the far side of the square was a cookpit, staffed by CyreneÕs kitchen help who were busy
putting out platters of meats and tubers, while several casks of winter ale had
been rolled down and set up near by.
Business
was booming. There was a giddiness present you could hear in the laughter and
the shouts of encouragement as nearby a group of people played darts and others
fought in a friendly arm wrestle.
Xena was
sprawled in a fur lined chair, a mug of ale gripped in
one hand while the other, bandaged, rested on her knee. She was glad the day was nearing itÕs
end, the rich golden light of sunset visible outside the tent edge, a the flaps
rustling in a cold breeze coming down from the mountain.
There
was the sense of an ending, at least for now, a contentment that would enjoy
the peace of the moment, and the coming solstice glad of what they had, and
what they had given.
Everyone
counted it a success. Even Xena had been surprised with the number of people, town,
village and visitors who had come up to her and said how happy they were with
the new shrines.
Some, because they had missed the worship of the gods. Some, because they felt that any protection was a good thing. Some, who had gone
with her to war, because they had come to a personal knowledge of the gods
unexpectedly.
Some, because they saw the commercial possibilities in
making Amphipolis a pilgrimage. XenaÕs lips twisted into a wry smile. Athens and Amphipolis
were not all that different in that regard.
The
biggest new thing was tiny replicas of the new
shrines, built by enterprising hucksters who had been up to them and brought
down dead branches and with that, and string and imagination had cooked up
little mock ups for sale.
CouldnÕt
make enough of them. Already,
some of the merchants were making plans to carry some back towards Therma and once there, she knew word would carry to Athens.
And then?
And
then. Whatever then turned out to be, it would. Xena wriggled
into a more comfortable position, drawing up one knee and resting it on the arm
of her chair, idly watching the troops in half armor – her armor –
enjoy themselves.
Cait came
over to her and sat down on a stool.
ÒMy goodness.Ó
Xena
shifted her attention to her friend. ÒWhatÕs up?Ó She regarded the young AmazonÕs face,
which had gained a new maturity over the past weeks.
ÒIf
Pally does all the sketches sheÕs being asked, sheÕll be doing nothing else for
seasons.Ó Cait
indicated the crowd around her partner. ÒThe dinars theyÕre offering!Ó
ÒSheÕs
got a real talent.Ó Xena said. ÒShe can always say
no.Ó
ÒToo
right.Ó Cait
said, to both statements. ÒOne of that lot said she should go to Athens.Ó
Xena
snorted.
ÒYes,
thatÕs what I said.Ó Cait produced a wry grin. ÒBut Xena,
what really is all this? What does it mean?Ó She asked. ÒI thought you werenÕt
much for the gods.Ó
ÒMaybe
I was wrong.Ó Xena
replied, thoughtfully. ÒMaybe we do need them. Ò
ÒMaybe
they need us more like it.Ó Cait grinned.
ÒDonÕt you think?Ó
Xena
sighed, then paused as Gabrielle emerged from the
crowd and headed in her direction, their eyes meeting as the bard evaded
servers and hucksters and family. She
could read amusement, bemusement and resignation in the bardÕs body language.
ÒHey.Ó
Gabrielle
perched on the sturdy wooden arm of the chair and leaned her elbow on XenaÕs shoulder. ÒHey.Ó She returned the greeting, giving Cait a brief smile. ÒWhat a circus.Ó
Xena
offered her the mug.
ÒGabrielle,
I heard you were going to tell that story again, the one from the cave.Ó Cait spoke up.
ÒIs that true?Ó
ÒTrue.Ó The bard handed back the mug after
taking a swallow. ÒThis seems like the right place for it. EveryoneÕs still
jazzed from the consecration this morning.Ó She leaned over and gently blew in XenaÕs ear. ÒThis is going to end up going in all sorts of
crazy and maybe bad directions.Ó She whispered after that.
ÒI
know.Ó Xena
extended her long legs and crossed them at the ankles. ÒBut maybe if weÕve got these here to
protect the area, we wonÕt have to.Ó
ÒHm.Ó
ÒHm.Ó
**
The
sunset painted the ridge from the opposite direction than the morning, sending
slices of deep gold across the cold ground and into the shrines, gilding a
tall, leather clad form sitting on the rock Xena had
sung from.
His
legs were played out, and he was leaning back on his hands, regarding the
valley with a thoughtful yet benign expression.
ÒOh,
Ares. They did a good job!Ó
Aphrodite came out of her shrine and joined him. ÒIt ainÕt
marble and gold, but its nice.Ó
Ares
tipped back his head. ÒYeah.Ó He agreed. ÒNot bad.Ó He got up and turned around, going into
his shrine and regarding the altar with itÕs deep
crimson stain. ÒLot of good jazz in
here.Ó
Aphrodite
inched in, not without a grimace. ÒOh, ugh.Ó
Ares
chuckled, then sobered. He
walked over to the altar and put his hands on it, then nodded and took a half
step back, drawing his sword out.
ÒThey did more than they knew.Ó
ÒYou
gonna tell them?Ó
ÒNo.Ó Ares sighted down the blade, then lifted
it up, letting it touch his forehead for a long moment, eyes closed. ÒI accept.Ó He uttered softly, as he ran
his free hand along the blade. ÒAnd
return.Ó
He
lifted his hand off the blade and turned it palm down most, dripping red in the
gold light before he put it firmly down on the altar, adding his blood to the
rest.
Aphrodite
shivered.
The
altar crackled, shivering itself and then lighting from within with a deep
faint reflection that extended to include Ares, gilding him, and his sword in
it for a long, breathless moment.
Then
he lifted his hand and the glow around him faded as he re sheathed his sword,
turning to regard Aphrodite. Behind
him, the altar retained itÕs deep fire and the oil
lamps flickered now with an internal depth.
He
winked at her. ÒWanna join us?Ó
ÒAres,
I canÕt.Ó Aphrodite made a face, hugging herself with both arms. ÒGross.Ó
ÒGabrielle
did.Ó He needled her.
ÒPart
of her belongs to you.Ó Aphrodite
responded. ÒJust like part of Xena now belongs to
me.Ó
ÒYeah,
yeah.Ó Ares sheathed the Sword of
War. ÒCÕmon. You got better snacks
in yours.Ó
With
a relieved smile, Aphrodite led the way over to her shrine and they walked
inside. ÒSoo
much nicer in here.Ó
Ares
rolled his eyes.
Aphrodite
handed him one of the little cakes from CyreneÕs kitchen. ÒItÕs nice.Ó She
looked around her space. ÒLook.Ó
She lifted up one of the spun wool shawls in creamy white. ÒSoft.Ó
Ares
dusted his fingers off. ÒNice.Ó He
agreed, then reached over and lifted the apple off the center of the stone.
ÒReady to accept your new pad?Ó He inspected the apple. ÒNice they figured this
out.Ó
Aphrodite
moved over to where he was standing and leaned against the altar. ÒYou should
tell Xena the score.Ó She said seriously. ÒShe kinda
deserves to know, you
know?Ó
ÒShe
doesnÕt remember.Ó
ÒShe
might.Ó Aphrodite took the apple from him and took a bite of it. ÒShe already
knows it was some kinda scam of ours.Ó
Ares
sighed. ÒShe might.Ó He admitted. ÒIÕll think about it.Ó
ÒIt
was a pretty sweet scam.Ó Aphrodite
offered him the apple, holding it out for him to take a bite of it ÒYou got a
lot of eternity points for it.Ó
Ares
chewed and winked at her.
The
goddess of love put the bitten apple down on the altar, and then laid one hand
on it gently, bringing a sprinkle of sparkling light to it. ÒI accept.Ó She then reached over
and hooked a finger into Ares leather vest and pulled him closer.
Hastily,
he swallowed, then inclined his head and they kissed.
ÒAnd
return.Ó Aphrodite murmured, taking
a breath and pressing closer to him. ÒBig time.Ó
**
The
festival finally ended in the small hours of the morning and that late hour
found Xena and Gabrielle making their way up the
slope together, leaving a happy shambles behind them.
They
climbed steadily upward, breath fogging, in companionable silence until they
reached the fork and paused.
ÒChances are.Ó Gabrielle
said, clearing her throat. ÒThereÕs hot water already on inside there.Ó
ÒTea
sounds good.Ó Xena agreed, as she steered her steps
towards the Amazon village. ÒYour throat must be killing you.Ó
ÒUgh.Ó
ÒGood
story, though.Ó
They
passed the guardhouse, the Amazon guards coming out to salute them
respectfully, then ducking back inside the warmth.
They
continued on, up the slope to the central plateau the village was built on, seeing candles
flickering inside led glassed windows in both small huts and the larger dorms, and lamps lit in the dining hall and
outside the gathering hall.
They
could hear voices, even at the late hour, and XenaÕs
sensitive ears for once heard no bitterness in them, and easy happiness in the
laughter. ÒI think we even pacified
the rest of the elders.Ó She
commented. ÒWhoda
thunk it?Ó
ÒYeah.
They even accepted that we did one for Ares and not Artemis.Ó The bard mused. ÒNot after they heard
all that back chat from everything.Ó
ÒMmph.Ó
ÒSomeoneÕs
got the fire on.Ó Gabrielle
commented as they walked up the path to the queenÕs quarters. ÒThought I heard a whistle go up
ahead of us.Ó
The
fireplace was lit, and candles were glowing on mantel and tables when they
entered, and they heard the soft rattle of the water pot already set over the
fire. ÒNice.Ó Xena unlatched
her cloak and hung it up, reaching her hand out to take GabrielleÕs.
It
felt good to have warmth around her, and she felt her body relaxing as she
removed her armor, setting it on top of the clothing press against the
wall. She paused in that to
adjust the bandage on her hand, re-wrapping it a little.
Then
she turned her head and looked sideways at Gabrielle, who was standing near the
fire watching her.
Gabrielle
came over and put her arms around her, closing her eyes and exhaling in
contentment. ÒDonÕt want tea after all. Just want you.Ó
Aw. Xena found
herself agreeing. ÒAlways.Ó She wrapped her arms around Gabrielle in
return, and they stood there for a moment, rocking gently back and forth.
They
kissed each other, as they undressed, trading furs and leathers for bare skin
and finding their way from the fireplace to the bed, getting under the blankets
and settling against each other.
ÒYou think they liked the new temples, Xe?Ó
Xena
shrugged, sliding one hand behind GabrielleÕs head and gently cradling it. ÒWhy
shouldnÕt they?Ó She kissed the side of her neck, working her way upward.
ÒItÕs
not like in Athens.Ó Gabrielle
said. ÒI went to one of the temples there. All ivory and gold and all that.Ó
Xena
traced a line down the side of her partnerÕs face. ÒWeÕre not Athens.Ó
ÒTrue.Ó Gabrielle conceded, easing closer and resting
her hand on XenaÕs side. ÒWeÕre us.Ó She laid a line of kisses down her
partnerÕs breastbone.
ÒThen
lets just be us.Ó Xena enjoyed the building passion. ÒMaybe now theyÕll leave
us alone.Ó
Gabrielle
paused in her attentions and shifted, going nose to nose with her partner. ÒWhen
pigs fly, Xena.Ó
Xena
blinked. ÒIf I shoot a flying pig out of the air, willya
cook it?Ó She tickled GabrielleÕs
navel, and they both started laughing. ÒCÕmon.Ó Xena pulled
her back down. ÒBefore the sun comes up and life goes on.Ó
**
The
End.